Just some thoughts about life....(sorry, it's long)

Well, I have been doing a lot of thinking about becoming an architect. Don't get me wrong, I love it and I'm not going to quit architecture school anytime soon, I just have some thoughts...

Here is the current situation:

I've known I want to be an architect since I was a freshman in high school. I've been through all kinds of informational programs about architecture that only furthered my interest. Then I visited firms and they really made me feel like I might actually be able to become an architect. Finally, I worked at Huckabee (firm in Ft. Worth) and they helped me see what architecture really is and that I love it and can't imagine doing anything else for the rest of my life. I've also known that architecture school was going to be extremely difficult. I prepared myself for the challenges and threw myself into the black hole that is architecture school.

Thoughts:

1) Is Drury really the right place for me? I am having a really hard time agreeing with professors and the things they are teaching us. Having been in the real architecture world, I can't understand why we are having to do certain things? Drury's architecture school is based on theories and designs and ideas, and while that's nice, I'm a very practical person! I would rather design something that was functional first, beautiful second, deep LAST! They keep asking me why I did something, and my answer is usually, because I like it, or because I wanted to? Then I get yelled at or my grade takes a hit? WTF! I don't understand why there has to be a reason behind every little thing we do? Sometimes, the reason is that it just works that way, but they won't accept that! When I worked with people at Huckabee, we didn't do any of this abstract crap. Everything was practical, functional, and (believe it or not) aesthetically pleasing! I'm just wondering if maybe I should have gone to UT Austin or Texas Tech like I planned in the first place?

2) I'm worn out, and I still have three years to go! I spend so many nights in the architecture building not sleeping in order to try and make everything perfect for these professors and it is getting ridiculous! I don't know, maybe I just need a nice long summer break or something, but I've got to start getting more sleep! Not to mention, I don't have time for anything BUT architecture! I barely have time to fit my music in, which makes me sad, because my passion for music is equivalent to my passion for architecture. I have to miss out on fun times with my friends because I always have to be at the [architecture] building to get my work done. And lately, I've missed out on a few DATES because I had too much work to do. That is WRONG! Something has to change!

3) I can't stand these professors! Some of them are okay, but all of them are so closed-minded! I think I may actually breakdown and scream at one of them soon! I'm really sick of the way they treat us and our work/ideas after they put us through hell! They don't seem to know what goes on the real world. And when students try to remind them (b/c there are a handful of us who have been there), we get lectured. We've been told that the general public knows nothing about architecture, and in school they teach us how to teach everybody else. Well, from what I've learned in the real world, it doesn't matter? People know what they want, and that's how architects design. Period. I mean, there are people like Frank Gehry and Steven Holl (google them) who design strictly for competitions and to become famous for their innovative designs, but architects like that make up about 3% of the world of architects! Seriously!

4) My solution: I've decided to basically give up on studio. I am going to start designing how I want to, and no longer for the professors who can't make up their damn minds! I don't really care about my grade in there because my other grades are high enough I can keep my scholarships. Not to mention, I don't have to worry about a getting job after I graduate because I already have one. No one from Drury is going to be world famous, and that's fine! I will be happy working at Huckabee for the next few years and then see where I go from there.

Ummm,...sorry, I just got really frustrated and needed to vent a little. I toned it down quite a bit so this didn't get too long, but too late I guess? Well, I am going to go to sleep and dream about things other than architecture! Night!

Currently Listening Big Time By Little Texas GOD BLESSED TEXAS see related

SPRING BREAK

First, to clear everything up,....I didn't mean Brian Smith, different friend Brian! I seem to have so many Brian's in my life,...hmmmm, I wonder what the significance of that is?

Anyways, I'm home now! For a week! I'm so glad not to have school for a week, it will be so nice to sleep regularly!

As far as the guy situation with me goes, there is so much drama,...I don't know what to do with myself anymore? Sometimes I want a boyfriend, sometimes I don't,...sometimes I want something really goofy like a fling and sometimes I am just dying to have a serious relationship? What is going on? Oh well, hopefully I will figure it out soon!

LYNDSEY! I will see you soon! YAY! I really can't wait!!

Currently Listening Daniel Powter By Daniel Powter Bad Day see related

so,....long story short,....there is a new guy,....i think! But, I am going to be much smarter with this one! Not gonna rush anything,....hopefully,....OH MAN! I have no idea what to do...AHHHHH!

I'll be home for Spring Break this weekend, and I can't wait! Especially to see Lyndsey and Brian! I have so much catching up with Lyndsey to do,...and just some good friend time with Brian before he becomes a world traveler and I never see him again! Oh well, I'm going to actually do my homework now, and not procrastinate! Later gators!

P.S. If you haven't heard Daniel Powter's song "Bad Day" you are really missing out! And, it only gets better with the music video!

Oh, and I took this personality test, and it was QUITE accurate...it's kind of interesting what you find out about yourself! Good Luck!

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Currently Listening The Very Best of Benny Goodman By Benny Goodman George Gerswhin Medley see related

Well, once again, I am up working on a project! This time though, no model or drawings, I am making an animated movie! I am so stoked!! It is really cute! We had to design a park to house a work of art (my piece is Kandinsky's With A Black Arc...if you don't know it, look it up! Come on, it's KANDINSKY!!!) in 3D Studio Max (for those of you who don't know what that is,...a 3D modeling/animating program), then animate and render it. THEN, we imported the rendering into Adobe Premiere (which closes itself every ten minutes!!! GRRR!!) and a song of our choice. Then, we cut the film to go along with the music!! I am soooo excited! It has turned out absolutely INCREDIBLE!! I AM FINISHED!! YAY!!! I can't wait to show everybody! Well, I am going to get some sleep before my HUGE structures test at 8,...yes, it is 6:30am! I will sleep for about an hour!

Oh, and tonight is girl's night out! YIPPIE! Red Lobster and a movie! Sounds like a BLAST! I can't wait,....Hope you all have good week's!! Miss and love you!!

Kate